Do you Even fashion?

So as most people who know me know, I am not the most fashionable on the block.

However, I recently found myself researching vintage selling platforms, which led me to depop, poshmark, and others. With some of the amazing clothes I’ve been finding, I figured it would be an injustice not to try and find them a home where they will get shown off and rock people’s socks off, as they should.

Here I am, down another creative rabbit hole… But first PHOTOS, and the question, Do you Even fashion?

Self-help Sketching

Doodles will forever be a source of therapy for me. Putting a pen to paper is therapeutic, isn’t it?

If it isn’t for you, I’m sure you have something that calms you… How often do you do it?

Lately I’ve been sketching everyday pretty naturally, I don’t know if anyone else can relate but it seems that there is an overflow of creativity and artistic/intrinsic motivation.

Today I’m keeping things short and sweet, and sharing a few of my latest sketchbook gems. I’m seeing improvement in some areas and not in others, but for me it never has been about the quality when it comes to sketches.

Works in Progress/Bearing with me

Man, it has once again been a while. Let’s just call it a temporary hiatus that may swerve and vary depending on my living situation in the present.

Lately, I have been so split into different ideas, creative outlets, and work.

Honestly though, I’m really loving it. I have never been so focused on things that I enjoy, and never learned so much about life, business, and art. I know life is going in the right direction now, I’m just hoping I can make my dreams a reality. In the time of covid, it’s especially difficult to start a small business, and have plans to start a business revolving around art sales.

Working at the antique shop though, has given me the ability to really get creative, find objects that would normally lay in a wasteland of things, and create something new and fresh out of the last persons trash. I may not be the best salesperson, but I certainly can bring a unique skillset to the table. I just need to find the people that understand what it is that all of this means to me. As far as that goes, I think I’m on the right track.

My current acrylic project is a pair of anti covid Reeboks, and I’m actually really excited to see how they turn out, an on going project that I’m working on are painted vinyl records, and I’m also working on painting a saw blade sign for a local business. I’m hoping to get some of my up cycled original pieces completely finished so I can start up a shop, just for artsy things, and hope that people like my stuff.

My problem has always been marketing and social media, so I’m hoping that I can improve that more naturally, rather than forcing myself into something that deters me from the parts of the job that I truly enjoy.

Anyway thanks for being here, and reading through my life, as sporadic and crazy as it may be. Here’s to new adventures, and blossoming creativity. Let’s bring art back to the area of importance that it should be.

It’s something I’ve been thinking about a lot actually, maybe I’ll write a whole post about the implications of these tumultuous times, and my view of the necessity of expression during said times.

Here are a few photos of the shoes I’m working on, unfortunately I don’t have any proper photos of the vinyls yet, but stay tuned for those!

Ball of Creativity amidst Uncertainty

Does anyone else find that, once everything gets thrown outside of your comfort zone, you are full to the brim with ideas and opportunities?

Lately I’ve been struggling to balance all of the things that are in motion in my life. I’ve found in this process that I am able to turn uncertainty into creativity. Or creativity forces itself in times of uncertainty. Either way, I am excited for what’s in store, and I appreciate all of you bearing with me through this time. I’ve been all over the place, but there are a bunch of projects in the works that I am thoroughly looking forward to sharing with you.

Like I said, art is pouring out of my ears, and I can feel that it’ll be great, when I finally have the time to get some pieces completed.

Finding a home at an antique shop has been a mind-boggling experience, and please bear with me while I try to catch up.

Thank you, for being you.

Artscapades

I always torture myself around the holidays, I hate Christmas shopping and still love the meaning behind handmade gifts. However, every year I trick myself into thinking that I am a quality painter, when in fact I am not. This year though, I have found a new joy in contemporary/abstract art, whether I not I give them as gifts, I have learned a lot and had a blast experimenting with color, shape, and texture.

Either way, I’ll let the art speak for itself and show you what I’ve managed over the past few days, with this style of art, I find that coming back to the painting each day and adding layer upon layer, leaves plenty of room for transformation and evolution in thought. Each piece has a story hidden beneath it’s outer shell, and to me that’s where the magic is in this type of painting.

Thinking about the view(s)

I’ve been wondering lately why it is that in this time, almost everything can be related to views. We see the world through a lens of pixels and screens, and if we aren’t being seen, we are seeing others who are. I have caught myself refreshing my stats for the day on this blog, constantly hoping someone will recognize me sitting here, all over the place, with no obvious direction, and make sure I’m seen… I’m hoping for someone else to come in and whisk me away to a place where things make sense, I find success, and everything is just a-ok because I have views and that’s all that I need right? Well I’m quite obviously wrong…. The truth really is that this blog has very little direction. It’s where I take all my interests to a screen and hope that someone else sees where I can succeed and carries me along a path that I can’t even see myself.

Alas, the world is not so simple, even with all the technology we have at our fingertips.

Alas, I am still figuring life out, seemingly at a snails pace, I’m trying to figure myself out too. Where I fit, who I can be, what I can be, and most importantly, how I can make a living in this cutthroat place.

I have dreams, and dreams require funds, and funds are only made through… well a job. I have been working again part-time during this age of Corona virus, I have been making my keep, but I strive for a passionate interest that can mean both success and a life I love. I have so many things to be grateful for, and I don’t want to take all the things that I do have for granted. I’m simply wondering, and contemplating the struggle that is finding what it is that will bring me sustenance as well as happiness.

Have any of you found a true passion in your work? What do you do? How did you find your happiness in life?

Thanks for listening to this random rant about life, what else is a young adult to do besides share their idealistic fantasies?

Acrylic Pouring Adventure

I decided to try something new, art block has been a struggle lately, so experimenting with new concepts has been a great way to spark creativity. I am excited to try more abstract painting styles in the near future, and I’m hoping some of the final products will make great Christmas gifts for family and friends. If I have any finished pieces of a good enough quality I will definitely consider selling some, if anyone is interested.

This pouring technique left my acrylic inventory dangerously low, so it looks like I will have to order more ASAP. Has anyone else tried this painting technique before? I find the whole process fascinating, and it is actually not a terribly difficult. A little disclaimer though, if you decide to try this at home, make sure you have plenty of space and cover anything and everything of value, because it is VERY messy. That happens to be one of the things I love about it though.

I decided to start this first attempt with simply water and acrylic, about a 40/60 ratio. If you are going to give it a go, the paint has to be super liquid-y for the blow dryer to efficiently spread the paint around the canvas. Overall though, the supplies needed, and the technique is quite simple. Just pour a bunch of liquid paint on the canvas and blow it around until you have a design you like! I found that the less you mess with it, the better. My first attempt went south very fast because I kept messing with different abstract styles on the same canvas, without a plan at all.

This is the one I did on a wooden canvas, I like how it turned out. However, doing this again, I would make sure the paint is well mixed, and I would put my hair up. There are a few times I had to pick hair off of the canvas, which is always annoying.
This is the one my fiancĂ© did, I’m only a bit jealous of the final product. My black acrylic was a bit old and clumpy which made using it for this technique a bit of a bitch. I’m assuming that’s why the cracking is happening on one side of the canvas. I am planning on diluting some mod podge, or other sealant after the paintings dry completely to hopefully preserve the glossiness and shiny metallic bits.

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Whisper Sweet Nothings

Let me know how you feel.

Reality is fleeting

And I just need to know how to heal.

PS. Sorry for being MIA, it really is that time of year. I dyed my hair red, went into hibernation, and have yet to find a way to drag myself out. If anyone has any tips or pointers on staying happy in the freezing cold, I could really use any advice. Thanks for stopping by.

Rebellion

Lately, I’ve been genuinely curious, I’ve been conducting some research, and I have a post from social media that I’ve found, that only increases the amount of questions that I have. Learning about so many issues within society today… I can’t understand it all. However, I can give some others one broad topic to think about. Who is making the wheels turn, and what are they doing to make things this way? We all have to assume, unfortunately, that corruption, greed, and coercion exist. We have to start truly learning, before it’s too late. Educating ourselves is difficult enough, not even considering the fact that our media can be controlled/altered. With advancing technology, we have to consider who holds all of that knowledge, and where, we the people, come in. When is it that we make sure that our opinions are heard? When is it that we stop confusing monetary value with self-worth?

Below I will share the post I was talking about previously…. I implore you, I beg you, take a moment to read, take more moments to research, I don’t have enough knowledge to tell you what to do. All that I can say is; take some time to really assess how happy you are with your country, with society, with the consolidation of money, and power. We have (as citizens) A LOT of issues to contend with, we have a lot to resolve. I happen to believe in us, I genuinely hope, that we can come together to fix things.

0 SCORE AND 7 YEARS AGO, it was assumed that teenage angst was why an upper class young man, or anyone else, would share this quote that can easily relate to anyone today. It is clear that the oppressors who have been letting us down, down, down, while we work, sleepless, are the individuals we trusted to lead us and raise this nation Under God, indivisible, with liberty and justice for ALL. Men and women have died for this cause, of a country with liberty and justice for all. Theyve died overseas, in police violence, in political killings by the gov organizations, and on the streets they call home. We can add nor take away from their greatest sacrifice for this country. Yet it is our American duty called down to us from our forefathers and every American who sacrificed their life to overthrow those who would shackle our Shepard dogs (our fighting ability), herd us like sheep (manipulated information), and sheer and kill us indiscriminately (as an expendable economic resource). These feelings have been calling for years for the purification of American Leadership. The knowledge of this feeling in our FREE American HEARTS has scared our “leadership”. So they work, sweaty as well, to keep us divided with misinformation and the rat race for money. When the government so clearly must protect itself and its corrupt institutions from the people it represents, it was George Washington who said that the people must then take the government. It is time to retake the government my American brothers and sisters. It is for us, living, to ensure that we carry the torch of those who sacrificed everything before us who died, not free, but fighting to be so . That we here highly resolve these Americans not have died in vain, but in the mighty struggle for a rebirth of freedom, and that the government OF the people, BY the people, FOR the people, never parish.

“We are the angry and the desperate,The hungry, and the cold,We are the ones who kept quiet,And always did what we were told.But we’ve been sweating while you slept so calm,In the safety of your home.We’ve been pulling out the nails that hold upEverything you’ve known.Don’t hold me up now,I can stand my own ground,I don’t need your help now,You will let me down, down, down!”

-Rise Against

All Over the Place

Well, it has been a whirlwind…

All of my ideas, and visions for the future swirling around and altering themselves in seconds. I suppose that’s just how life goes, especially when you have so many interests, ideas, and missions. It’s interesting to feel so motivated in so many different areas of life. Maybe, just maybe, that’s why I always quit too soon. I have an issue where once I get an idea, it becomes a montage of dozens, all with equal importance in my mind.

Taking things one step at a time is difficult when everything seems so dire, and interesting. I know I talk about my own thought processes often, but I find that it’s easier to hold onto my motivation when I do. I know that I have things to do, sometimes I just allow myself to forget. Writing this down, and occasionally looking back on it helps keep my shit together, to be perfectly honest. I can’t help but plead with you, plead with myself too, in order to keep holding myself accountable.

I often wonder if anyone is really listening, or if anyone really cares. I always come back though, to the idea that I have no reason to question that, I am fulfilling something for myself, and that’s okay too. I feel as though, society pushes people away from themselves. Everything that society is, a conglomerate of individuals if you will. When people are pushed together, sometimes it’s difficult for them to remain separate entities, they may remain in title themselves but, in everything else they are an ant to a colony, a bee to a hive, all serving a queen. It’s an interesting thought, isn’t it?

From what I’ve noticed, most of the people blogging, and/or creating, are holding onto their individualism more than most. Maybe, just maybe, we are the people clinging onto ourselves, and saying screw you to those who judge us for it. This is why I continue to create, clinging onto the idea that we are all trying to stay, and be, very much ourselves.