Gotta say, this blue is mesmerizing. I’m so excited to get my Depop shop going, I have so many awesome Vintage finds that I can’t wait to share. The photoshoots have been a blast, stay tuned for the launch of said shop on January 31st. Depop username is @jenaekayy , so if you wanna stay updated on my current creative/business ventures, go follow me there. Also if you want to see more artsy/modeling photos go on over to instagram and follow me there, @whynotb.you
So as most people who know me know, I am not the most fashionable on the block.
However, I recently found myself researching vintage selling platforms, which led me to depop, poshmark, and others. With some of the amazing clothes I’ve been finding, I figured it would be an injustice not to try and find them a home where they will get shown off and rock people’s socks off, as they should.
Here I am, down another creative rabbit hole… But first PHOTOS, and the question, Do you Even fashion?
Over the past couple weeks, my life has drastically shifted in so many ways, all during a very chaotic holiday season. That said, things seem to be going in a good direction, being pushed out of my comfort zone may have been exactly what I needed.
On a whim I picked up a job at an antique shop, and have found some amazing treasures, I’ve had creativity pouring out, and I really do think the opportunities are endless. My favorite find so far is a 1945 1st edition Naked City by Weegee book. They seem to be listed at anywhere from 2-5 hundred dollars online, however rare books aren’t as coveted as they once were, and I really did fall in love with the book after looking through the pages. It’s a photography book with narration in between, the provocative photos that document NYC in the 1940s are amazing and terrifying. It’s like jumping through time, and I’ve found a real love for it.
Anyway, I am onto the next adventure, and seeing how things play out, thanks to everyone who takes the time to read my blurbs about life, and I hope you bear with me and continue to enjoy my all over the place kind of content and personality.
I did start an etsy account that is still being updated with new antique treasures quite often, and I actually plan on looking into starting a second one for antique items that I spruce up with my own artistic influence eventually. Right now though I am a bit overwhelmed with just looking through the things that are already there, and magical in their own right.
I’ll keep you guys updated as I go. I have some 1950s yearbooks that I have to photograph, I want to share them with you. It’s so amazing how different everything seemed, although my favorite picture was a girl with a vodka bottle in one hand, and a cigarette in the other. It seems college hasn’t changed all that much!
It’s been a minute since I’ve even opened up my laptop. I don’t really know what to say on here, my mind is still trying to catch up with a crazy series of events that hit me out of no where. Basically right now I am looking for a place to stay short term, until I can figure out a living situation. My car is packed up and I’m lost in space, it’s strange because I swear I had a dream about typing this up.
For tonight however, I have a warm bed to sleep in and am content. Sorry that’s really all I’ve got for now, I’m still finding time to paint and wind down throughout the days, even though I am stressed more than I have been in… well, in a very long time.
I hope the holiday season is going well for all of you, thanks for listening. Goodnight, talk to yah soon.
In the very beginning of this Ted Talk I was captivated, the eloquence with which Andrew speaks, is truly captivating. Truly, no one does think about the ludicrous feeling of not wanting to take food out of the fridge for lunch, not being able to get out of bed to shower.
It is also an interesting idea that we are far behind in treatment for illnesses like depression, yet we have come so far in the past 100, 50, 20 years.
I have found myself not being able to do those same things lately, not walking downstairs to get food out of the fridge, not leaving the house. It’s a huge problem, it’s an illness that plagues the world, and I find it interesting that it seems that nothing can separate this illness from individual personality and character. Diluting your mental state with medication is sometimes necessary and beneficial, but it is that, that separates yourself from your own insight. Existential questions that are asked by all, mingle in the brain of the depressed, are pondered often and thoroughly…. I wish it felt beautiful and profound to be a person who ponders, sometimes I suppose it is.
I’m interested to hear any thoughts about this, it can be lonely struggling with your own mind, it can be frustrating when you search for connection on a ground that is so individual and personal. I myself, am trying to find the beauty in asking the tough questions, finding the possibilities within my own incessant mind. What about you?
I’ve been wondering lately why it is that in this time, almost everything can be related to views. We see the world through a lens of pixels and screens, and if we aren’t being seen, we are seeing others who are. I have caught myself refreshing my stats for the day on this blog, constantly hoping someone will recognize me sitting here, all over the place, with no obvious direction, and make sure I’m seen… I’m hoping for someone else to come in and whisk me away to a place where things make sense, I find success, and everything is just a-ok because I have views and that’s all that I need right? Well I’m quite obviously wrong…. The truth really is that this blog has very little direction. It’s where I take all my interests to a screen and hope that someone else sees where I can succeed and carries me along a path that I can’t even see myself.
Alas, the world is not so simple, even with all the technology we have at our fingertips.
Alas, I am still figuring life out, seemingly at a snails pace, I’m trying to figure myself out too. Where I fit, who I can be, what I can be, and most importantly, how I can make a living in this cutthroat place.
I have dreams, and dreams require funds, and funds are only made through… well a job. I have been working again part-time during this age of Corona virus, I have been making my keep, but I strive for a passionate interest that can mean both success and a life I love. I have so many things to be grateful for, and I don’t want to take all the things that I do have for granted. I’m simply wondering, and contemplating the struggle that is finding what it is that will bring me sustenance as well as happiness.
Have any of you found a true passion in your work? What do you do? How did you find your happiness in life?
Thanks for listening to this random rant about life, what else is a young adult to do besides share their idealistic fantasies?
I decided to try something new, art block has been a struggle lately, so experimenting with new concepts has been a great way to spark creativity. I am excited to try more abstract painting styles in the near future, and I’m hoping some of the final products will make great Christmas gifts for family and friends. If I have any finished pieces of a good enough quality I will definitely consider selling some, if anyone is interested.
This pouring technique left my acrylic inventory dangerously low, so it looks like I will have to order more ASAP. Has anyone else tried this painting technique before? I find the whole process fascinating, and it is actually not a terribly difficult. A little disclaimer though, if you decide to try this at home, make sure you have plenty of space and cover anything and everything of value, because it is VERY messy. That happens to be one of the things I love about it though.
I decided to start this first attempt with simply water and acrylic, about a 40/60 ratio. If you are going to give it a go, the paint has to be super liquid-y for the blow dryer to efficiently spread the paint around the canvas. Overall though, the supplies needed, and the technique is quite simple. Just pour a bunch of liquid paint on the canvas and blow it around until you have a design you like! I found that the less you mess with it, the better. My first attempt went south very fast because I kept messing with different abstract styles on the same canvas, without a plan at all.
I know that some of you may lack interest in science, it is something I have been interested in since I can remember. Uncovering the secrets, mysticism, of the world with data, experimentation, and of course the scientific method of theory and evidential proof.
As I’ve gotten older my perspective around science has altered drastically, the idea that you need a degree, to pursue scientific discovery, is something that I think has turned many away from the field and the overall concept of scientific exploration. There are so many opportunities to conduct mini experiments throughout your life. Whether they are purely scientific or otherwise, I find that it’s important to ask the critical questions anyway. I maintain the philosophy that, life in and of itself is a big experiment. Therefore, I find the critical thinking skills so strongly tied to all fields of science an immeasurably important concept to consider in some form, on a semi-regular basis.
In my life, I find science in little things almost everyday, but that’s simply because of my personal interest in the discoveries we have been able to make as a species. What I am trying to say is hard to put into written words, but hopefully you can understand what I’m trying to say. The basic fundamentals of science, question, hypothesize, theorize, experiment, answer… All of these things are also fundamentals of life and self-development.
And THAT is what draws me to science, THAT in turn, is what draws me to life.
I’m currently considering producing some videos, and/or posts, around different topics that have fascinated me recently. These are topics ranging from the development of electricity, and Thomas Edisons’ fraudulence, to the Bush administration and it’s environmental approach that has unfortunately paved the way for a lack of understanding in the US pertaining to climate change and the impact that it could very well have on the entire world in the next 50 years or less, to space exploration, to psychology and it’s inability to create a broad testing system that is accurate for each individual.
As of now, I’m uncertain how to format any of these topics properly, and would have a large amount of further research to do, but let me know if you’re interested in seeing anything like that in the future. I appreciate all of you, and I hope to hear your ideas, perspectives, and opinions!
Whatever it is that you see
Is it really me?
I worry about you
Realizing it wasn’t true.
No longer enjoying the view.
I worry about me
may catch up with me.
All that’s seen in the family tree
waiting to be seen.
Will I ever truly be free?
The change from fall to winter always hits me pretty hard. With this year being an election year, it becomes even more draining. Tensions are so high, everything is uncertain, and it’s freezing outside.
I’ve had too many thoughts going through my head, and they get so overwhelming I decide not to pursue any of them. Backwards logic, I know…. But there are so many things I want to say, explain, ask. I just can’t seem to put it into coherent sentences.
I haven’t written in a while, and I wanted to check in. Let everyone know that I’m a little all over the place, and feeling tired from all the chaos that is life but, I am slowly getting my wits about me, and I will hopefully have more frequent updates coming, once I get my crap together that is.
For now, I am actually pretty optimistic about a few things happening in my personal life. I can feel things changing in a positive direction for me, it’s just harder to look at the world and see it going in the right direction, it becomes a large source of anxiety and frustration for me. Thinking about the big picture things always gets me a little bit down. Either way, I’m hoping to break out of this funk soon.
How is everyone else doing with the seasons changing? Are you in a cold climate or warm? Does it affect your mental health at all?